You're just picky.

Never has a sentence filled me with rage so much as this one.

The first time I heard this sentence was in my kitchen with a bunch of drunk people. I was just about to go off lamenting about my single-hood and my friend (who I'm not super fond of) goes "Oh you're just picky!" I sat there, with a deadpan face not speaking for a few minutes whilst in my head I turned into the fucking Hulk and raged so much. I'm not FUCKING PICKY! I'm just not a whore! Who sleeps with every ugly mother fucker that shows an ounce of interest in you. My "friend" has seriously daddy issues and therefore validates herself time and time again with any male she can find. ugly or not! It was awesome at first, I was like right on girl. Then it went overboard, not cool, not cool. So she was sleeping with this ugly mo fo and this ugly mo fo, one night stands, fuck buddies, elevator antics. Whatever I don't care. That was fine. I've got no fucking problem with her enjoying her sexuality. But to then stand there and call me PICKY! Because I don't sleep with just anyone. FUCK. YOU. Seriously. FUCK YOU TO HELL.

I raged. I calmed. All is fine. BUT THEN. My other friend utters the same FUCKING WORDS, "You're just picky." (again when I'm lamenting... seeing a bit of a pattern). Now THIS friend. Oh my lord. She's no way NEAR as bad as my other one but she has her own issues. She can't stay single for one goddamn minute! Let alone for months, years. Whatever. So for her to have the nerve to say to me I'm picky again is just like .... WHAT! So because I can actually stand to be by myself and establish myself as an INDIVIDUAL makes me picky.

I'm being harsh. Both of these girls are lovely. But seriously they have their issues, both of them male related so for them to call me picky is fucking rich. RICH. I'm not FUCKING PICKY.

And as my dear friend ..... Drill Sergeant xD said to me "It's just that being picky isn't a bad thing. Maneface and Mikey and maybe some of your other friends seem to be ok with short flings. You'd prefer something with a bit more.... Depth.... That alone makes thins your choices a bit." 

And so I'm like yeah! Maybe I AM picky. But that's not a bad thing. So bitches. Call me picky all you like. I'm gonna wear that fucking badge with pride. Fucking hell. (Also I think it's time to stop lamenting.)