HAMLET! The mini pig :3

There must be something wrong with me! I seem to like torturing myself. Fucking Swiss Giant again. Rhubarb! Fucking FORGET! *sigh* I don't know why he keeps popping back in my head every now and then. I always wonder what he is up to and whether he thinks about me. And I imagine what it would be like if we met again by chance. Sometimes, because I'm really sad, I'll listen to a song he sang for me one (Spiderman) and it makes me laugh xD or I'll watch his videos on Youtube to hear his stupid accent again. And I feel PATHETIC! Looking back at pictures it is coming up to three years ago now that we first started talking. That means at least two years since I last spoke to him. Why can't I let this go? I sometimes get tempted to message him just to see how things are going and to catch up and maybe start talking again but I know deep down it would just end up the same way so what's the point? Plus I wouldn't be able to swallow my pride. I really hope I get to talk to him again in my life, at least once. Maybe a years and years down the line... or something. I know it's so stupid and pointless but I really miss him sometimes =/ I hope he still thinks about me. I don't think he does though. I'm so easily replaced. He has plenty of other saddo internet friends who fit the same criteria I do. Yet I can't seem to find another person like him. If I met someone like him irl I would fall so badly in love with them. But it would probably end up being such a bad relationship xD

I saw two Shakespeare plays the other day for my course. It was an all male cast with quite a few hotties and the one I particularly was attracted to happened to be the one that kept taking his trousers off which was lovely. A few twinges down there if you know what I mean xD

I cannot wait wait wait to go to this wedding. I am going to look SO good. I will be in a dress that makes it hard to breathe and shoes that cripple my feet but gorram will I look good! I will look so much better than Rowie. And me and my bro will fucking dance all night and get so drunk. It will be glorious.